Trust the process. Trust the process. We hear that often. That’s not easy. Honestly, it’s not easy at all.
I have days when it doesn’t seem so bad. Every now and then I manage to appreciate the wait a little more. It doesn’t seem so hard. From time to time I feel like I can do it. I feel like the wait isn’t so excruciating.
But on the days that that wait is relentless. On the days when the wait seems painful and the hopeful results don’t seem worth it, life seems a little tougher. Work seems a little harder to deal with. Money seems a little tighter. There just doesn’t seem to be enough of anything that I want or need.
Trusting the process is all about that time though. It was much easier to trust the process when it all seemed to go according to my plan, but that’s not the point. Trusting the process is for when things don’t go accordingly.
Basically, as far as I can tell, I’ve been a wimp. As soon as the going gets tough I question and doubt everything I’ve already went through. Really, what good is a process that doesn’t require some blood, sweat, and tears? What can I appreciate when it didn’t cost anything?
Truthfully, I’m struggling with the process. I know it’s worth it. I know the struggle is strength, but I don’t feel like it right now. I don’t feel like being strong all the time. I just want it now. Yet and still I know that if it doesn’t cost anything it’s probably not worth anything.