I’ve always worked to not be that girl in life, especially in relationships. I’ve worked, in fact, perfected making sure men were aware of the necessity they aren’t in my life. I’ve strived to not be the one that loves the most or hardest in a relationship. I’ve just wanted to be me and have him fit in wherever he can find room.
People say in a relationship there’s always one person who loves more than the other at some point. I believe that. But what I now understand is that when you love someone you don’t care about that. Love will allow you to act in a way you never had the strength to, so you could care less about who’s loving most because you’re focused on loving period.
I’m in a relationship and I love him. I don’t care that I loved him more on Friday or whatever. I just care about him and us. And guess what? It’s not the worst thing in the world.
I’ve had to grow. And I’ve had to be patient. And I’ve had to open up. And I’ve had to compromise. And I’ve had to do all these things that just aren’t me, or I’ve had to do things I just haven’t wanted to do (and could still stand to do a little more of). These are things I’ve never had to do in a relationship that have been so hard for me at times, but truthfully, it has been worth it every time.