You know what I don’t understand?
I don’t understand how people can look at some situations and say they weren’t being true to who they really are. People usually say, “Oh, I wasn’t myself back then,” or “ well I only did that to make you happy.”
I just listen. I am completely wowed by it actually.
My thought process is this: If you were really not going to be yourself, couldn’t you have at least been a better fake you while you were at it?
What makes people that important that we feel like we have to be something we aren’t around certain ones? How do we give people and their opinions of us that much power? We are all imperfect either way. So why do we want people to think we aren’t? They know we don’t have it figured out, just like we know they don’t. Why do we pretend so much?
Who’s really real these days? Who’s giving all they are, flaws and all now? And who’s doing it without wanting people to think that they are okay with it?
I will easily say I don’t have it all figured out. I don’t. But there is still some part of me that wants you to think that I do. Something in me wants you to believe I don’t have it all figured out but that somehow, my not knowing it all will make me seem like I’m on another level. Almost like I’ve evolved just because I can admit my mistakes.
I’ve realized. That’s too much work. It’s much easier to just be me, and know what I know, and know what I don’t. I’m not going to be a fake or pretend.
And for those who aren’t going to be real, do us all a favor, and at least be a good counterfeit.