I’m a schedule freak. I plan spontaneity. It’s true. But, yet again God had to call me out on it.
God said, “Hey Chanel, I love you. I love you to death, literally. And because I love you so much, I don’t need your back up plan. There will never be a situation that gets so out of control that I need to call on you. Yes, I know I’ve wired you this way, but I also know why I’ve wired you this way. In the meantime, know that I got this.”
I’ve talked about God calling us out. Well, He calls me out a good bit. It’s not that I’m completely disobedient, but it is that I’m controlling. I’m controlling through schedules and planning. It’s strange that I’ve never made a plan for the big stuff, like being married by 30 or owning my own home by 29, etc. It’s the day-to-day things I have trouble letting go of.
God has to nudge me and say, “Chanel, you can’t schedule EVERYTHING! You can’t get in your prayer closet and time it out missy.”
And I can’t. I can’t control everything. I can’t worry over all the little details. I really do have to adhere to the saying, “Let go and let God.” Every now and then I have to not do so much and just do what God specifically says. And when I can’t hear Him, it helps if I would be quiet. I can’t hog our conversation all the time.
It’s good that God called me out. Because when He did I had to stop everything and turn it over to Him. That quickly, the burden I chose to carry was given over to a God that wanted to carry it for me! The fact of the matter is that God doesn’t need my help or control or plan. That’s the whole point in having faith in the one and only God that can’t fail. I don’t have to man the situation. I have no need to be afraid that His plan won’t work. It always does.
Mark 4:19-20 (CSB)
He got up, rebuked the wind, and said to the sea, “Silence! Be still!” the wind ceased, and there was a great calm. Then He said to them, “Why are you fearful? Do you still have no faith?”