Do I deserve to be happy? I don’t know. Sometimes I feel like I do, and sometimes not so much. And yes, I know that until I feel like I deserve to be happy the likelihood of me being happy isn’t very high.
Happiness is more than a state of mind or emotion. It’s a lifestyle. To me, happiness is hopefulness. Although things may not go accordingly for you, you are still happy either way. You still believe things are working in your favor; therefore your happiness is derived from that hope.
I guess I think deserving to be happy requires more for me. I don’t work hard enough to be happy or give enough to be happy. I’m not open enough to be happy. Maybe I believe that I just don’t do enough to be happy.
Then I realize, I don’t appreciate myself enough. I don’t appreciate how hard I do work, or what I do give, or how open I have become. And I further realize it’s worse than just me feeling this way. I don’t appreciate the changes GOD has made in my life.
I could never work hard without HIM. I can’t do any better without GOD. I could never be truly happy without HIM. It’s impossible.
So what’s the moral to the story? It’s this:
Acts 2:28 You have made known to me the paths of life; you will make me full of gladness with your presence.
If GOD is truly in me, I deserve to be happy, because HE deserves to be happy wherever HE dwells.